Log in

A Tale Told By An Idiot... [entries|friends|calendar]

[ website | LiveJournal ]

[ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ]
[ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

FIN [06 Jul 2008|03:26am]
[ mood | good ]

It's 3:30 a.m. and I'm posting my first LJ entry in a very, very long time.

Nostalgia is my dearest friend and most sworn enemy. It creeps up when I need it both most and least.

To say I've grown up in the past few months would be an understatement.

I've graduated. I'm living in L.A. now. I have a job job. One of those legitimate, full-time, good-paying jobs.

"Dude...from the sound of it...you seem set."

The job I have now could definitely make waves for my future. For now -- too soon to say.

Wish me luck, as I move on.

The threat to delete this journal has always been present, but I think it's time to let it finally slip away.

Only fitting as the next chapter in my life begins.

I can't tell you how fucking excited (and terrified) I am about it all.

(as always...)

and scene,

|want eternal sunshine?

Here's the thing... [21 Sep 2007|05:52pm]
The last [public] entry I wrote I vowed to delete this journal the night I turned 21.

I don't use it anymore, and I hate to say it, but I don't even look at my friends' entries anymore either. Which I used to love doing just to keep up with whatever crazy lives you crazy kids were living.

I started this journal in 2002. It's now 2007. That's fucking ridiculous.

What's changed since my last entry? Let' see. I'm 21 now, I suppose that's a landmark.

I'm pausing now to inform you that even as I type this I just want to delete it and not post. I'm so over LJ, this is kind of sad. And a little funny. Such is life.

I'm 21. I'm going to Los Angeles in January for an entire semester. My last in fact. Internship. Should be grand.

I'm kind of done.

I'm done.
2 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

i hate to do this, but... [04 Oct 2004|08:46pm]

you've given me no choice.


you can thank the anonymous fucksticks as well as others.

There's got to be a way to just program all past entries to be friendsonly without going through each one using Semagic.  Thanks for the link anyway, Aaron C.

If you find yourself deserving of being my friend, feel free to post a comment.  I'm not making any friends cuts or anything, but if you've been reading my journal without my knowledge and I know you or think you're dead sexy - then maybe I'll make an exception to the rule.

17 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

it's time for a change. [09 Sep 2004|12:11am]
i got some awesome new icons, i just dont know which one to keep.




all of you better vote, it takes five seconds of your time.

right now i'm using stewie with the lipstick, but earlier i had the one from explodingdog.com with the record player...

so vote, bitches!
15 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

futhamucka' [07 Sep 2004|11:41pm]
[ mood | sore ]

these bottom braces are killing me...this whole DAY killed me.

everything that could've gone wrong, did.

well first i should mention that for the next few days my car is going to be taken away from me and for the next few weeks i'll be set with curfew - - - all for blowing out my tire. i dont know about you, but i think they're completely overreacting.

so at 12 i had my bottom braces put on...and right now they hurt like a bitch. when my top braces were put on, they didn't hurt until the next day...but they're really hurting now. i've actually taken six motrins in six hours...yep, you heard me. it says on the box to take only 1 every 4-6 hours. but hey, what do they know.

i went to whataburger by myself and likely humiliated myself by eating my chicken strips like a retarded elderly man. i let my lips do the biting and top of my mouth and sides of my teeth doing the chewing...it was terrible. i was surprised that this method worked well though.

another bitch i had to deal with today was the lady at the Vital Statistics office at city hall. i wait there in the cramped, stinky office for them to print it out...only for the lady not to give it to me because she wouldn't accept my mother's credit card. as much as i explained to her that this was the only method of payment i had, and that my mom gave me permission and that she's in an entire other state - but the bitch wouldn't budge. she overtly writes VOID in big letters on my birth certificate and cuts it up. i wanted to shove those scissors so far up her ass they came out as fucking pinking shears!!!!. but, i kept my composure...and walked away.

sooooooo....i have an hour to drive all the way back to edinburg (from downtown mcallen city hall, it's a long way fuckers...) to my dorm and hope and pray that my mom's money came in - and it did, but not until 4:10. and, of course, it was a check...so i was entirely fucked. i needed this birth certificate for applebee's, and i feel stupid that i need to have the manager wait another day to get it to him. luckily the job is locked-in and turning it in tomorrow will be no problem.

i hate the environment here at UTPA, let's take a random conversation for example:

Chonger Girl: "Hey baby, come over here..."
Chonger Boy: "What the fuck baby don't touch this shirt it's silk, baby, it's SILK!"

One more year...one more year...


4 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

you abnormal bitches! [06 Sep 2004|06:11pm]
[ mood | bored ]

LJ House Party by fayray
The DJcocototherescue
The Drunksimplyscarlet
The Hottiegiveupandgo
The Wallflowernonforkingspoon
The Playerjustareminder
The Gamblerlittleevil
The Horny Onesoo_very_peachy
The Crasherblackmarketumpa
The Love Interestmayhem_thrive
How many people got laid93
Chances the party will be a sucess: 55%
Quiz created with MemeGen!

If LJ Was a High School by Karen_Walker
Lunch Ladyxnikki122x
Head Cheerleaderviennnaaa
Prom Queenel_fudge
Gang Membervinyl_days
Band Geekblackmarketumpa
Theatre Geekradicallyblows
Chess Club Captainsimplyscarlet
Loner Goth Kidbehomebynine
Class Clownmayhem_thrive
Quiz created with MemeGen!

Popular interests among loudpunk's friends
1. stars (6) 11. thursday (4)
2. writing (6) 12. the beatles (4)
3. phantom planet (5) 13. death cab for cutie (4)
4. the strokes (5) 14. drawing (3)
5. friends (5) 15. taking back sunday (3)
6. music (5) 16. interpol (3)
7. coldplay (4) 17. modest mouse (3)
8. food (4) 18. rain (3)
9. reading (4) 19. rooney (3)
10. movies (4) 20. rushmore (3)
Interests gestalt
My most interesting friend is xlastgoodbyex who has 11 of these interests,
followed by insipid_arse (8), giveupandgo (7) and nonforkingspoon (7).
Normality Index
My friends are 69.01% normal.
Analyze me !
Popular interests created by _imran_

it's been a slow, long Labor Day Weekend.

i don't remember if i have homework or not.

i'm broke.

i start at Applebee's on Saturday.

i owe sara a lunch of hummus, calzones, and coke.

that is all.

|want eternal sunshine?

drunk and stupid. [05 Sep 2004|04:11am]
[ mood | drunk ]

got drunk.

got stupid.


groped andrea ferguson's boob.

beat people at pool, got my ass handed to me at pool.

completely fucked up my tire, and was lucky enough to have my brother in-town along with his mechanic friends to fix it for me.

i...feel so stupid.


4 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

oh, baby. [04 Sep 2004|02:30pm]
[ mood | amused ]

it doesn't get any funnier than that.

well, it does.

that is all, have a great day :)

4 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

political rant no. 128 [03 Sep 2004|02:01pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

if there's one thing i hate more than a faithlessly devoted bush supporter its one that has no idea what the fuck he is talking about...or is that just the same thing? you be the judge.

last night after the Republican National Convention was over CNN switched over to John Kerry speaking at one of his many campaign trails.

well i'm downstairs, you know, minding my own business and making myself a hot pocket when kerry states "this president has mislead us into an unnecessary war..." (discretion: i'm paraphrasing here..the gist of this is that bush lied to us about this war and now we're screwed.)

this causes one chonger to get up, call kerry a, and i quote "fuckin' puto" and storm out of the room. okay, good to know he's a mature citizen obviously deeply involved in politics.

then as the speech continues, and my hot pocket is just about ready, arguably the most flamboyantly gay human being i've ever met in my life goes on to state to the others around him robotically nodding their heads that (pointing to kerry on the televison set) "...if this man wins, he plans to inact a draft and we will all die, all of our dreams will be crushed...and you think going to college is going to protect you?...it ain't." this being said by a 20-something college student in the fitting voice of an 8-year-old girl.

okay, let's review the facts
1.) Kerry has never talked about inacting a draft, where this imbecile even got this contrived bullshit is inconveivable.
2.) It is, ding ding ding, BUSH and his administration that actually proposed a draft to Congress. Yes, it was shut down because they rather rely on those in reserves - but it was Bush and his camp that proposed it nonetheless, not Kerry.

cringing and all, i proceeded to break up this political pow-wow and inform these ignoramuses of the above fact - only to be coldy ignored and not the least bit acknowledged.

fine by me, in my mind. i got my hot pocket, and exited the room just laughing to myself about the imbecilic statements i'd just heard. what was worse was the others listening to him were obviously just as mis-informed, and took this horeshit of information for truth.

oh, and i think it's just excellent to see bush-supporters stoop to even lower lows and actually fashioning kerry's face on flip flops...then wearing them on their heads. yes, kerry-plastered flip-flops on your head. good to see them go out in style, i say.

in political science today, my second favorite class to theatre appreciation, we had another current events discussion and it's good to talk with several students in there who are informed. but nobody beats my actual professor - it's ridiculous how on-top of things she is. we discussed how bush vows to focus on college funding. funny, considering just this year you raised tuition. and bush is proposing yet another tax cut to those with an income of $200,000 or more - which, if you've seen the figures, all ready helped them a hell of a lot. but hey, you've got to stroke the egos of your core followers.

that is all, goodbye.

3 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

just TRY looking at these pictures and not laughing your ass off. [02 Sep 2004|09:04pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

i really want to know what the story is behind this. it is the fucking funniest thing i've ever seen. well that and this...

she's just so...happy. and yet so...fat. but happy...nonetheless.

classes were all right today. the only thing i regret is sleeping in and missing spanish. yep, i all ready missed a class. the fucktard that i am turned off my alarm instead of snoozing the bitch. so, naturally, i slept in another hour only to wake up and realize that even if i shower-lessly hauled ass to class i'd be thirty minutes far too late.

theatre appreciation was fun, we discussed why the theatre doesn't hold relevance in the valley, and why it's scarcely appreciated. it was really an interesting topic and everyone had a lot to say - including myself.

biology...i actually think i didn't to do badly on the quiz we took today. hopefully she has the grades by tomorrow.

my roommate is officially ghetto. he's got a penchant for rap music and he continues to question if i "know any ladiez" and if i "party in mex". i am trying really hard to find some positives but lately nothing but negatives are piling up. i mean he seems like a cool guy, but we're just such polar opposites. which is just my luck, of course.

i've got political science tomorrow, which i'm looking forward to.
biology lab for the first time, which i'm absolutely not.
and cultural anthropology, which better get more interesting.

those classes are one right after the other so i should probably go to bed early. but i wont...cuz i be a rebel AHHHHHHH GUEY.


9 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

my insultence has just been intellegenced. [01 Sep 2004|08:53pm]
[ mood | good ]

today was another wonderful day at the University of Texas Pan-American.

woke up at 7ish to go to Political Science. i'm enjoying that class more and more. i love discussing hot topics and current events, and i've been proving to the teacher that i am well-aware of both. it feels a little weird being one of the few, if not the only one, who talks the most and drives discussions. i'm not used to it. i'm usually the dumbass that sits there and only joins in to tell a few jokes that garners fewer laughs.

i was anticipating Cultural Anthropology to be a total bore, but my professor proved she has a great sense of humor. she really kept me interested to my surprise, talking about all the different variations of cultures and what not. she really got my attention when she talked about the different things she's eaten - from grasshoper to monkey, yes monkey. even guinea pig.

went to go pick up my mail and i got a free razor from Gillette? what the fuck? thanks...? i guess. it kind of scares me that they knew when my birthday was. it didn't come with a card, unfortunately, but i'm assuming it'd congratulate me on turning 18 and going through puberty.

on the way to the post office the man behind me looked exactly like John Goodman. sir, if you're reading this...i loved you in The Flintstones.

so i'm rocking away to The Who's Teenage Wasteland in my car, we're talking drumming on the wheel and dashboard, the works, only to discover that my Theatre Appreciation professor was right behind me travelling down 10th street. he had one of those facial expressions that was like "What the f...wait...isn't he in my class!!!???". it was embarassing to say the least, and should make for an interesting session tomorrow.

my roommate is actually a pretty cool guy, and pretty laidback. the only complaint i have is that he needs to clean up a bit more. he's got a mcdonalds and a jack in the box bag, and some weird cake-looking thing in a styrofome box all out on his desk. i'm making him sound like an ignorant fatass, and he's not. but i just dont want this roach problem to come back so quickly after i got rid of it.

i have a biology quiz tomorrow that i'm pretty nervous about, so i'll be studying that tonight and studying some more with veronica before the class tomorrow. wish me luck, bitches.

went to applebee's today to turn in yet another application directly to the manager who is supposed to hire me, and i wasn't ready but he gave me a little impromptu interview just to get to know me and what i thought "customer service" was. after pulling the answer to that out of my ass he said he'd call me friday. before the interview i had to run to my car and get my cell phone to retrieve a number of a reference of mine, and it was raining pretty hard. i get back in, soaked, and a waitress there giggles and points out umbrellas in the corner as if assuming i all ready knew they were on-hand. yeah, thanks for telling me this now...ass.

i feel kind of bad for my father, its a little apparent that he's getting lonely again without me staying at his apartment anymore. he calls me at any possible minute. its a nice gesture and all, and i feel bad that the constant calls are becoming some what of an annoyance. he's also been making me dinner every night, which i appreciate and all, but yeah...i dont know where this is really going so i'll just stop now.

" Oh My God Becky, look at her butt...it is SO big. She looks like one of those rap guy's girlfriends. You know, who understands those rap guys...they only talk to her because she looks like a TOTAL prostitute, okay. I mean her BUTT...it's just so BIG. I can't believe its just so..round...it's like OUT THERE...I mean...gross. Look, she's just so..BLACK. I like big butts and i can not lie, you other brothers can't deny. Now when a girl walks in with an itty bitty waist and a round thing in your face you get SPRUNG."

Classic song, I only write this because I remember my brother and sister coming to pick me up from work and BLASTING this song through the car speakers much to my embarassment, in front of all of my other employees. The bastards. It was funny as hell though, I'll admit.

well that's it.

oh, and THIS:


3 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

First Day of College. [26 Aug 2004|10:47pm]
[ mood | indescribable ]

Today was my first day as a freshman for the University of Texas Pan-American. Swallow that one, bitches.

my day started by waking up at the asscrack of dawn (read: 6:55), and heading to my first class, Beginning Spanish. i was a little intimidated at first, and to be perfectly honest me and veronica seemed like the only ones who knew english. but that all changed when we went around the class and introduced ourselves, and the teacher seems like a cool, laid-back guy. he gets extra points by stating that he never gives lower than a B. just the teacher i need.

on to theatre appreciation, and i predict this will be my favorite class. in a stroke of coincidence my professor is watson: the sequel, a tall, white and goofy teacher not afraid to crack bad jokes. similarities between the two couldn't help but run through my head throughout the entire class period. it seems like it's going to be a very fun class, and the professor came off as a really cool guy also.

at lunchtime i just hang out with veronica and her friend from work sara, and made the mistake of heading to the student union which was packed as hell. on a sidenote, you would think that the college environment would be completely different and that you would never run into people from your alma mater again, and today has proved that that couldn't be farther from the truth.

within five minutes of walking around i run into NICOLE COWAN, whom i jokingly scoffed at only to her embarassment. it should be fun running into her as the semester progresses.

and my luck hits its peak when i run into the incomparable sara alvarado, lover of "teddy hugs" which i'm just not willing to give lol. i'd like to hang out with her more often, and i do apologize if you felt like i pushed you aside but i had to get to biology...really...i did.

biology is going to kick my ass, this class was extremely intimidating. it didn't help that, God bless her, this teacher - as nice as she seems - has a heavy Indian accent that makes it hard for anyone in the class to comprehend, including myself. veronica and i walked in five minutes before the class was scheduled to begin yet we walked in and felt as if we just missed a 40-minute lecture. this lady not only began class early but was all ready summarzing the whole fucking book through a Power Point slideshow. after flirting with the idea of dropping the class we both agreed to stay in there, because apparently not only will the class be ending 1.5 hours earlier than scheduled, i just looked at alternative bio classes and they dont seem to work any better into my schedule. i'm really going to have to buckle down for this class...as well as political sciences which i start tomorrow.

i just got back from a mandatory dormatory meeting outside, where the mosquitos no doubt had a feast on my legs. it didn't occur to me how many people were staying in these dorms, at both our Troxel Hall, and the women's. i feel a little awful that i'm not opening up to anyone, or befriending anyone i guess you should say. i couldn't help but wonder if i'd leave this year at all with a new friend, but this is really all of my fault considering how painfully introverted i am.

so they separate us by dorm wings to go over rules and guidelines, and before the presentation from the All Mighty President of Troxel Hall (I have no fucking clue what his real title is) - this guy sitting next to me says I look extremely familiar, then proceeds to ask if I'd been in any plays. I go on to say that I did Noises Off! which leads him to say that's where he knows me from, and that i did an excellent job and that the show was awesome. it was a nice surprise to say the least, but then he concluded that he hopes to be seeing me in future UTPA Theatre productions. i can never take a compliment as such, and that last part, well the cynical bastard in me found it a little off-putting.

so the All Mighty President of Troxel Hall, let's call him AMPTH for short, comes and I swear to God he comes off as a prudish and gay version of Rick Gonzalez. Or, just a prudish Rick Gonzales. (oh, you know i'm jay-kaying.) it didn't help matters when he had an obvious fondness of using finger quotations which is one of my biggest pet peeves.

i'd like to go visit caitlin and petey in KMAC one of these days, as well as all the old theatre people. the only problem is that KMAC is 3rd and 4th period, theatre is 3rd, and i have very tight spots in between classes during those very times. i ran into demaris (sp?), petey's girlfriend...and she was talking to him on the phone at the time. then rita instant messaged me saying to go visit them, and well those are my intentions so i hope they dont think i'm brushing them off.

now time to open up. earlier tonight i started to feel REALLY fucking lonely. no fucking joke. past days, not so much - for some reason it really started to hit me now. and i bet you're thinking to yourself - - - well go fucking make friends. but like i said, that's really hard for me to do. tonight during the Dorm Meeting I couldn't help but think if i'm really squandering this opportunity, by not taking advantage of college living (i.e. making new friends, giving people a chance, etc.). part of me really wants to, especially when i hear the likes of laura lisa, to barbara, to david talking about the great new friends they've met. but dammit i just can't bring myself to do it. on top of that, my roommate has yet to show - but i dont think that ties in with being lonely or anything, because i have no clue whether this guy is even going to show and if he does, it's going to suck because i've gotten so damned use to having this room to myself. see, it's these mixed emotions that are just making me sick to my stomach sometimes. i want to be alone and couped-up in this dorm room all day, away from everyone else...but then sometimes i feel like talking to someone? i'm sure this will all sort itself out in one way or another, sooner or later.


9 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

WARNING: Due to some mature content, livejournal reading discretion is advised. [25 Aug 2004|07:11pm]
[ mood | cold ]

fire in the disco! fire in the taco bell!

that song by electric six is so damned catchy.

well in twelve hours and thirty-three minutes I will officially be a college freshman, sitting in my beginning spanish classroom that will likely be as fucking FREEZING as my dorm room is. you all don't understand how cold this is. i mean, my joints are in pain and i've completely lost my balls. it's not pretty, folks.

went to a "ropa" for the first time with denise early in the morning. i actually had a blast, but that's a given when i'm hanging out with denise - we can make each other laugh with the stupidest stuff. i took a major fall down a clothespile, and i like to think that 1.) nobody else saw this, save the all-too-silent woman sorting out clothings right next to my "landing" and denise who was standing at the foot of my fall and 2.) that happens to everyone who visits ropa for the first time.

had a hilarious conversation with carrie. i love that kid, and wish her all the luck up there in san marcos.

oscar gonzalez of lyford, texas is still very much a no-show. wouldn't that be CRAZY if he was really Invisible Man, and he's been here THE ENTIRE TIME?!?!?

there were some extremely fucked-up sounds coming from my suitemates' dorm. i mean, odd. there were all of these OWWWWWWWWWWs that would turn into OHHHHHHHHHHHHs OOOOOOOOOHs and AHHHHHHHHHHHs. if i didn't know any better i'd think they were just getting kicked in the chins by an angry fat kid who just lost his ice cream, getting a very hard trigonometry problem explained to them, then getting a visit from Jesus Christ who proceeded to do magic tricks. only problem i see with this is, trig hasn't started yet :-/...and even Jesus would think it's too damn hot to visit edinburg. let your imaginations run wild folks but let it be known i am not making this up and when the noises stopped, honest to magic show Jesus, they both came out and i heard the shower running and constant laughing.

i love that cure song "just like heaven". i love it like a white house intern loves a cuban cigar in her fish taco.

i'm being obnoxiously sophomoric with this post aren't i?

i'll stop now.

wish me luck tomorrow,

8 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

good times. [22 Aug 2004|05:41pm]
[ mood | indifferent ]

thursday night i got a call from veronica saying connie was in town at that they were going to eat at TGIF, so i met them there along with connie's boyfriend and orly. afterwards we all went to connie's to basically just drink and mingle along with caleb and this guy denver who was pretty cool, and that lasted all the way until 5 in the morning. we would always say "we're leaving..." but just stand there and talk more.

friday was my birthday and i must say it was honestly one of the best ones i've had. i just had a great day. i went to lunch with christina at chik-fil-a which is always good, then my dad took me to dinner. afterwards i went to david's "going away party", all though i secretly liked to think it was an 18th birthday party for me also. besides the fact that some wouldn't live down the fact that i went out with a girl there for three days in elementary - and the impending visit from an annoying piece of shit from my rowe days (which, thankfully, he never came - but just minutes ago noticed he left a message on my phone, and called at 2:30 in the morning last night...? what the fuck. leave me the hell alone.) - i had a blast. david and karra got into this huge fight and it was just about the most entertaining thing i'd seen in a long time, all ending with david screaming "You know what - I'm just gonna go and drive off a fucking cliff". now see, this last part I find interesting only because last time I checked, the valley is void of any cliffs. needless to say david came back within five minutes, oh and some guy busted open his chin when he was surprised and pushed into the pool. there was this badass chick there, who only gained more admiration from me by having "crimson and clovers" tattooed on her back (J.E.W. fans would understand this). after the party i went with david and karra and their friend mark to whataburger - and honest to God we were just there talking for three hours. it was insane. and there were never silences, it was just non-stop interesting and hilarious conversation. well, besides the fact that i found out some disturbing information about two past friends of my brother. considering david is likely reading this, i'd like to say that i will miss you man and good luck up there at UTAustin, but honestly you won't need it....you'll drop out by october. j/k. oh by the way, NIKKI WAS THERE, TOO

saturday night i went with dria, brian, christina, jacob, edgar, and denise to olive garden for my birthday. it was nice. it was a little upsetting that only two people at the table actually came with appetites, that kind of pissed me off to be honest. but everyone did end up eating, i got a condom from edgar which was originally from dria, i got hit on by our waitress...? i dont know, i had a fun time though - it was good seeing everyone.

denise, me and you have to see Saved! when it comes to El Rey. I also want to see Maria Full of Grace...and Garden State.

after dinner everyone left even though i wanted to do something else, but eh, what can you do. i consoled myself with some lotto tickets and, to my surprise, won $50 on one ticket. hellllllllls yeah, bitches.

where am i now? typing this very entry? at the dormatory of UTPA, and right now it's ok. but that's because my roommate has yet to move in, so i've got the room to myself. that will change quickly i'm sure, i wouldn't be surprised if he was there when i got back into my room. [right now i'm typing from the dorm computer lab, because the damned high-speed connection in my room is fucked up].

i haven't eaten anything today, and i'm pretty hungry. i'll probably get food right now, get back in, and watch one of three DVDs i got. one is Eurotrip, a gift from David which he assures me is funny (haven't seen it yet), and at the endlessly busy wal-mart supercenter here in edinburg i got Keeping the Faith and The Best of Will Ferrel, two DVDs i've been meaning to buy for the longest time and hey, they were on sale.

well that's all for now,

6 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

the next chapter. [17 Aug 2004|11:04am]
[ mood | anxious ]

God this is so weird...

In three days I turn 18

In five days I'll be living, working, and sleeping with a complete stranger and in a whole new environment

In nine days I'll be a college freshman.

People went back to school at the wonderful Nikki Rowe High School and it's weird reading their entries the night before and yesterday afternoon when their first day was over. I feel like I just missed school yesterday, and that I will be going back to sit in those horrible seats in those horrible classrooms horribly painted a horrible light blue - all the while being taught my a horrible teacher. I'm not going to miss Rowe, not one bit. I'll miss the people in theatre, yes, but that's not really Rowe. I'm not planning on setting foot in Rowe again, that chapter is thankfully over and done with.

Like with all major life milestones, none of this is really hitting me. Many friends are going off to college in other cities, and realistically, I'm probably never going to see them again. Let's get real here, and this isn't the pessmistic way of looking at things. Ten-year reunion? No thanks.

Last night I started to ponder about the dorms and, admittedly, started to get somewhat excited about it. I've had nothing but bad feelings up until that point, it was like I suddenly realized that it may not be so bad. I haven't gotten a phone call from this dude, nor have I phoned him. I'm painfully shy when it comes to meeting anyone, anyone, and most people don't believe that coming from such an apparent loudmouthed extrovert. So I honestly don't find myself mustering up the courage to talk to this person for the first month. I'll just have one of those dry erase boards handy, and that will be my initial form of communication.

My aunts Diane and Letty was nice enough to buy me innumerable supplies for my dorm, which I'm thankful for. My aunt Alicia gave me money to buy a mini-fridge. How cool is that? I've always wanted one of those.

I'm leaving San Antonio today, heading back to the oh-so-wonderful Rio Grande Valley. If I don't see or speak with anyone that is leaving within this upcoming week, I'll use this entry to say "laters", haha. So, "laters".

I have absolutely no plans for my 18th birthday, because it's smack dab in the middle of such a major transitional period for everyone I know - which sucks for me. Eh, what can you do. Sure, it'd be great to hang out with everyone - but come this Friday everyone will become no one and anyone left likely has things to do.

"I'm a lonely little petunia in an onion patch, and all I do is cry all day"

That was from Six Feet Under, great show. I'm not really tying that in with this entry, all though you very well could. I just wanted to put it in here because it made me laugh.

Well, that's it for now.

3 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

[13 Aug 2004|11:15pm]
[ mood | content ]

just here in san antonio.

don't know when to go back.

watching edward scissorhands, love that movie.

been fortunate enough to hang out with dria this week. we went out to eat at red robin where she had an unbelievably embarassing experience that i won't go into detail here. let's just say it still has me laughing. also went to go see princess diaries 2.

birthday is in a week, school in a week and a half.

feeling nervous, anxious, excited - all of the feelings i've all ready mentioned before in countless other entries so i dont know why i'm saying it again.

that is all.

2 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

ahhh, shit. [07 Aug 2004|04:20pm]
[ mood | blank ]

my mom called and wants me to take advantage of this wretched "tax free weekend" and go to the mall to get some clothes.

tax free weekend = consumer-driven mexican savages.

i hate going to the mall as it is, but this is going to be hell. i'm putting it off until tomorrow though.

might be going to san antonio for a couple of days, just to enjoy my last weeks of summer before my job and school begins.

got a lot of money this afternoon for my birthday (not till the 20th) - but hey i'm not complaining.

the other day they were showing the Noises Off! movie on HBO, i was like "Holy Shit!!!". needless to say i watched it and it was fucking hilarious. i liked it a lot. they did a lot of gret, funny movements that we as a cast didn't get to do which sucks - but our show still kicked ass.

my mom said it's 56 degrees up there in west virgina. i couldn't be more envious.

hm well that's it really.

|want eternal sunshine?

[random shit] [28 Jul 2004|06:02pm]
[ mood | nostalgic ]

Brian: "You know english?"
Mexican in the back of a truck: "No, only for that speech and what I'm saying to you now."
Brian: "You're joking, right"
Mexican in the back of a truck: "Que?"

i'm paraphrasing, and horribly at that, from the Family Guy episode last night. ahh, fuckin' funny sheeeit.

the other day i was gettin' ten kindsa nostalgic thinking about the whole Noises Off experience and, oddly enough, kmac.

God, Noises Off was so much fun. i just look back at it and i think to myself "fuck...did we really put on that AWESOME show?!?"...and the answer is always, "yes dumbfuck, now get over it." but really, just the great set, and all of the awesome actors. not to mention the cast party later on in the year, which was also fucking great. i think that would be the one thing i wish i could go back and relive from last year.

well that, and our video shoot for The Verve Pipe's "The Freshmen" haha.

(in a soft, scary tone)"They're coming for me..." (walks over to the window and gazes out)

that was fucking great.

i actually think i'll do what most "rowe theatre vets" do once they graduate, and that's come back next year around U.I.L. time to hang out with watson and the cast for a while. i think it'd be kind of fun actually. a desperate, pathetic way to fill time, but fun.

and well i'll get to visit caitlin again this upcoming school year when i go into KMAC to make my damned video resume for UT. of course, my time there will really just be spent in the Soundtrack Room, muahahahha.

edgar's livejournal userpic is fucking hilarious. i go to my friends page, it's there, and jeebus h it cracks me up everytime.

so according to both managers i will be working at applebee's, i just have to turn 18 first. so that just adds to the list.
1.) buy countless amounts of pornography
2.) buy countless amounts of cigarettes
3.) buy countless amounts of lottery tickets
4.) get job.

Things People Owe Me
1.) a burnt copy of the franz ferdinand cd
2.) a trip to jitters coffee place in mission
3.) a lapdance (i'm looking at you, laura lisa cervantes...you dirty little minx you.)

haha, i kid i kid. (not about the last one though, ba-zing!)

and if you've reached this part of the entry, THIS VERY PART YOU'RE READING RIGHT NOW, i'd like to sincerely apologize for wasting your time.

15 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

updating for the sake of updating. [25 Jul 2004|07:33pm]
[ mood | blah ]

um nothing interesting going on really.

well connie talked to the applebees manager and he said he had no problem hiring me, but i'd have to turn 18 first. i'm a little torn because i am completely broke right now and i dont know whether it's worth it to wait a couple of weeks or try to start working sooner. but after months of job-hunting, a promised position at applebee's seems like my best bet.

hung out with veronica, connie, and abram's brother caleb [oddly enough] at pizza hut late thursday night. scared the shit out of veronica talking about valley urban legends as well as other scary things. i kind of got scared myself. i brought up the 'ouija' board (sp?) and it was apparently a pretty touchy subject. it just reminded me of all the scary shit i used to get into with raul and them a couple of summers back. then connie was talking about the three signs of the apocolypse and damn that scared the hell out of me. apparently, one of them includes demons coming up from hell and inhabiting your loved ones. and if your loved ones start screaming for help as if they're in need, you're supposed to run away from them and lock your doors, because they'll turn you into a demon too. i dunno it was all some pretty scary shit. afterwards we just gave the leftover pizza to their manager at applebees and we hung out there for a while. after that i just hung out at veronica's where i was getting a little weird cuz it was pretty late in the night. but yeah i was acting really goofy and idiotic which usually happens to me when i stay up late, and we had a good time watching log rolling competitions on ESPN. that's some fun shit. we also made fun of that guy's singing, the one who sings "I Don't Wanna Be"...who the fuck knows his name anyway.

haven't really done much the past two days. today i just went to a family gathering on my dad's side. i got bothered when they were watching Daredevil and one of them claimed, while watching Ben Affleck, that his best performance was in Armageddon, having another one of my family members claim that that was one of their favorite films. so basically, with my dad's family - i love them and all - but there's no accounting for taste. I mean, Armageddon?!? That's one of the worst fucking movies ever made! after that me and my dad caught a showing of The Bourne Supremacy, which was really fucking good. i wasn't too lost, which i was expecting because i never saw the first one.

while on the subject of movies, i really want to see The Village, which veronica reluctantly promised she'd see with me - only under the condition that we see it during the day so she forgets about the scary stuff by nighttime haha.

got in a huge fight with my mom just becuase she's become very wishy-washy on future living conditions. while i've got a room and roommate set at UTPA, she told me that if i found a roommate that an apartment wasn't out of the question. when i brought the subject back up, she just started yelling and questioning where i got the idea that she could afford an apartment. probably from her when she fucking told me that it was possible. goddamn she gets to me sometimes, i just wish she wouldn't go back on her word so much. it's just a little ridiculous that she came here with this hidden agenda of actually buying me a condo [so that the family had a place to stay when they came down, was her reasoning] and then she just does this last-minute switch to UTPA dorms. it sucks.

ah fuck it, it's not worth discussing anymore.

well that's it.

|want eternal sunshine?

my new schedule, bitches! [22 Jul 2004|01:33pm]
7:45-8:35 – US and TX Govt. Political Sciences
11:45-12:35 – Cultural Anthropology
7:45-9:00 – Beginning Spanish
10:35-11:50 – Theatre Appreciation
1:10-3:50 – General Biology
7:45-8:35 – US and TX Govt. Political Sciences
11:45-12:35 – Cultural Anthropology
7:45-9:00 – Beginning Spanish
10:35-11:50 – Theatre Appreciation
1:10-3:50 – General Biology
7:45-8:35 – US and TX Govt. Political Sciences
8:45-11:35 – Biology Lab
11:45-12:35 – Cultural Anthropology
2 spotless minds | |want eternal sunshine?

[ viewing | most recent entries ]
[ go | earlier ]